The Dearly Departed
Les Empires
A Farewell To Arms
The End Of The Ocean


who's to say it'll be the same?
you look like the roads
i'm homesick for a place that doesn't exist

"i swear i heard a ghost
screaming your name
but it's voice sounded
just like mine"

i open up my arms with your knives
to hold graceful words into view
you will see your heart through my eyes

breathing, barely breathing

I can't forgive myself for being the ocean;

just give me anything
you have my everything  

ive found a place
another place i don't belong
i feel my heart losing pace with the world
and i'm running out of ways to cope 

 my teeth are spotless
but my eyes are rotting
out of mind and out of sights

you cloaked me in innocence
while harbors held me in contempt
of the northern atlantic line

(break)

no one seems to understand
the tiny world within my hands
just a vassal of my time

rising up in aches and pains
my tides will never move the same
about yours, oppressing

(break)

my dear, i'm growing older
your side of the bed is growing colder still
so what's a man to do

resign is the design
resign is the design

looking back did you really exist?  

how heavy was my heart?
the strength i saw you had
to hold it in your arms,
faded away with your faith,

anchor me down, with empty arms

how heavy was your heart?

you left all the weight in my arms.

i've found a place where i belong

if it hurts to hear
it's killing me to say

please, believe in me

i'd gladly let whatever be the death of me

an endlessness seems to weigh me down these days 

this place doesn't feel right

i'm scared to claim these thoughts as mine

and the earth beneath my feet is screaming

come closer into my make and my being

you're in love with the person you wish i was. 

and with air so frozen and bitter

you became the crownless victor

of all your empty aspirations
and all my shallow respirations

i think sometimes that i'm not who i should be

and i always forget that i still know how to breathe

and i still wonder why i thought

that i could've kept you in my arms 

and there are no matches you can throw

that can set fire to your shadow

existence is won, when death can come without fear

we wrote our love songs on sweat strained rubber bands

stretched across our wrists like your back to my hands

with everything we had feared to find within
became the very interests with which we found ourselves 

now every autumn leaves me cold, their leaves will cover up your corpse

in my mind

heatless rays of morning sun
past streaks of dusty stains

cascade through the window
and cover up her face

our bodies lined like soldiers
in a trench of lustful grace
parallel and covered
by a single sheet, releasing me

she's quite the heavy sleeper,
but with bombs across the floor

i clench closed, my eyelids,
and suddenly i'm looking at her from the door

i know i've seen this scene
a hundred thousand times before
and my adventurous eyes
remain my souls captivity

it's become recreation,
this pain i sport like a winter coat

i gave her the slip, and walked out the door,
or so the story goes

a single golden quill hits her eye
just enough, to wake her up;
but all she hears are floorboards
creaking with laughter

i just can't stay,
for love has not strayed from me
my heart betrays,
the hundred-thousandth and one

i'm out of different directions

i'm out of ways to change

i pray my love will take root.

my memories feel worthless, my bones are brittle and lame

i never knew you.

my lungs are oceans of endless lies.

you stopped reading, i slammed the book.

it's easier to forgive myself

when i consider you dead.

you cherished me to sleep.

forget me, my memory is useless.

let me sleep again,

my arms are endless

my soul is aching

i pray that God is listening

all my love was the greatest cost of loving you.

i gave you everything

you took everything away

teach me to believe

in everything but me

you were worth it all

even eternity expires,

even my soul gets tired.

this will haunt me forgever

i unboxed my childhood,

and reccled it's contents

some just hurt to much to look at

some just didn't fit anymore

i fall and the world catches up to me

you word was fucked as much as mine

your out of names to change to

to escape your failures

love is a widow's cusp.

we cannot ruin
what we cannot touch

i broke your heart, but you broke my footing,

i don't know where i stand anymore.

glass curves and fake pebbles

is it possible that you've thought this over

i've been wondering how you've stood on this for quite some time

and now that both of us have exhausted every option

all that's left is to give up what we've given up

we're crippled inside

from the best years of our lives

i'm glad you brought it up

since i've held my breath too long this time

and i've tried so hard

to wrap my head around what drove us apart

cause nothing has been left unsaid

it seems i've lost my better half

beneath this mess

oh no

what have I done

nothing goes to show like what i'd intended

swept beneath us under one big fucking rug

contemplating what we considered dedication

turn this book upside down and pray every word falls out

we're crippled inside

for the rest of our lives

i'm glad you brought it up

since i've held my breath too long this time

and i've tried so hard

to wrap my head around what drove us apart

cause nothing has been left unsaid

it seems i've lost my better half

beneath this mess

oh no

but i know better

oh no

but i know better

it floods me with confidence

and i can't feel a thing

obstruct my eyes

for every step i take

turns me around again

around again

and i'm not depressed,

but i'm still not impressed with my life.

 

nothing goes to show

is it possible that you've thought this over

i've been wondering how you've stood on this for quite some time

and now that both of us have exhausted every option

all that's left to give up what we've given up

we're crippled inside

from the best years of our lives

i'm glad you brought it up

since i've held my breath too long this time
and i've tried so hard

to wrap my head around what drove us apart

cause nothing has been left unsaid

it seems i've lost my better half
beneath this mess

oh no

what have I done

oh no
what have i done

nothing goes to show like what i'd intended

swept beneath us under one big fucking rug

contemplating what we considered dedication

turn this book upside down and pray every word falls out

we're crippled inside

for the rest of our lives

i'm glad you brought it up

since i've held my breath too long this time

and i've tried so hard

to wrap my head around what drove us apart

cause nothing has been left unsaid

it seems i've lost my better half
beneath this mess

oh no

but i know better
oh no
but i know better

it floods me with confidence

and i can't feel a thing

obstruct my eyes
for every step i take

turns me around again

around again

and i'm not depressed,
but i'm still not impressed with my life.

it's new year's eve... and it's new year's day,
i just blinked, in the disarray
and it appeared, in the similar grace
of morning breath piercing cheek skin

and i thought of where i'd gone wrong
and i thought of what might have been, now lost

my eyeslide heavy, and my pupils hungry
to see the world in this age, as it's meant to be seen
i fall again, as certain things won't set me free
as how i believe in you all too fondly, my love

and i thought of where i'd gone wrong
and i thought of what might have been, now lost

manifest destiny

shades of gray clouded every street

and the crumpled paper skies began to unfold

surrounded us in exponential quantities

and swallowed every definition whole

the last body of land

was dutifully noted and ignored

and the entities beyond my hands

we're brushed closer in a comb overboard

an illusion of stillness

has overcome this newborn ocean

in the air i feel each subtle movement ripple

like a rock hurled across the surface

this is the limit of my reach, stretched out

for all of the water to see, and recede

for what it was worth, i reached out

as far as the firmament allowed me

as far as from sea, to shining sea.

from sea to shining sea

the last thing she said

betrayal seems like more of a trait than a choice one makes, to me

my mind and my spine back-stabbing one another constantly

the last thing she said was "thank you", but i refuse to believe

in my lack of self honesty, that i deserve such an honest apology

the last thing that she's said was "sweet dreams", 

that there was absolutely nothing wrong with me... for crying at separation

but i feel it creeping in my bones, my skin and my teeth

a carnal manifestation of testamentary destiny

and it's a good thing, it's a great thing

my empty arms and the heart between their sea-less shores

it'll still save you from the pain, and the worry in my words

when i say i'm not fine, i'll be fine, i'm alright

now i'm forced make a choice between the options that i have

without the 20 questions, or any textbook to help me understand

in light of all these pointless things, i finally feel the weight of the poetic oceans

symbolism, similes and metaphors, traded for empty breaths

and it's a good thing, it's a great thing

my empty arms and the heart between their sea-less shores

it'll still save you from the pain, and the worry in my words

when i say i'm not fine, i'll be fine, i'm alright

the first thing she said was "i promise"
the first thing she said was "i promise"

when i speak to god i speak astronaut

i've never felt so lonely

in the company of satellites

passing me by for a fleeting streak

and onto a different course of allignment

on through more and more dead space

the universe furthermore expanding

with each word my heart attempts to speak

i turned to the starlit streets

in the company of cardboard stories

making me feel a bit more homely

to a different homesick fleet

warning lights flashing in the atmosphere

shining through more and more dead space

with each time my heart decides to breaks

don't call me a savior,

cause i'm not

i'm just a fallen cosmonaut

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nuclear skeletons


you slowly but surely found your smile again
picking up from the place where you last left it up north
taking love from the top of an hourglass;
don't let it get to you... it's worth so much more than just sand.

i've read and heard things i shouldn't have, in the past few days
it turns out that love, is exactly the same thing as hate
and the indifference between them within me now plagues your mind;
and we're both so tired of trying to fight against my disguise.

it is only a matter of time love,
it is only a matter of time

i feel there is nothing left to say,  besides good night or good bye
and i'll hold myself as high as when i used to dream about other things
"what happened to everything you said to me" i find myself wondering
and perhaps i will find myself awake again, just waiting...

because it's only a matter of time love,
it's only a matter of time.

and i'll realize that what you had done was right
i'm sorry i can't promise you that i will be alright
but someday, i will have faith, rest assured.
with gentiles under-waged and over-worked.

it's time, love, it's time
it's time, love, it's time

it's time, love, it's time
to open my eyes
it's time, love, it's time
to open my eyes

i'll hold my breath, i'll hold it in
until i either explode or simply drown
a bomb in the middle of the ocean,
with my nuclear skeleton, and these hopeless sounds